本来好期待新家。
现在还是，可是有点儿累了...今天原本是见了装修商后、拿了点儿东西就回家等妹妹下班然后去看场电影、吃点儿东西- 因为明天是她的生日。可是装修商却来迟了一个钟头，因为他是老人家，所以再怎么懊恼也不能给老人家脸色看，再说他是爸爸的老朋友。聊了一个钟头多，尽管我向爸爸解释后，爸爸再向伯伯解释，伯伯还是对我心里要的概念不是很肯定。那时真的好想蹲在地上哭...看了看手表，时间不够了，我便向伯伯问了：
Uncle，装修整间屋子要多长的时间？
三、四个月吧？
天啊，要这么久！我怎么没问清楚才解释装修概念，真的是赔了夫人又折兵...没关系了，至少知道了，下次就不会再犯同样的错。再见多两个装修商，希望就能开工了。在同妹妹吃晚餐时，我们聊起装修的事，我便向她诉苦：
人家搬家，有两个人一起做大部分的事。尽管装修很累，过程应该也还蛮享受的吧？
怎么了？很累啊？
一点点啦。今天... 〈我向妹妹简单解释了今天早上发生的事情〉
哇！Uncle真厉害！哈哈！
你还笑，我肚子痛，还得装作很有耐心...这两天又和妈妈斗嘴。搞什么吗？这两天好像不是很顺利。
你肚子怎么了？为什么又和妈妈吵架？
不知道，昨天就开始拉肚子，可能吃了什么不该吃的，喝多点水应该会没事。为什么我就是和妈妈这么合不来？以前，吵了架，我也不觉得怎么样。可是，这几年，就很不舒服。我知道妈妈怎么样都是妈妈，可是我们就是不能不吵。吵了过后，就很内疚。怎么办？
哎呀，以后就问她 - 今天买马票了吗？就这样就好了，她就会很开心了咯。
哈哈，妹妹总是一大堆怪点子！结果，我们没看电影，就聊天、喝汤。这样也不错，反正肚子痛，看戏也不会舒服。喝点儿汤，若待会儿要泻，也没这么辛苦。我们接着聊：
喂，我问你 - 一个人一辈子是不是就这么多快乐或好事？用完了就没有了？
应该是。
原来，你也这么认为！有时是不是，今天太过快乐，明天就会有点儿相反的事会发生？用完了快乐怎么办？
有时候会这样。不会一下子都用完，应该会分阶段，人生应该没这么惨。可以不说这种事了吗？明天我的生日嘞！你看我刚买的这个bag美吗？很美，对嘛！明天可以...
有时，我觉得老天给了一个和我没这么谈得来的妈妈，可是也没太过亏待我 - 因为他给了我一位很好的妹妹。但是，老天在造她的时候，shopping的基因下太重手了。
在和妹妹碰面前，我见了一个老朋友。朋友说她坐到月底就不做了。她守了这分工九年，终于累了。主要是因为她不赞成也不同意高层的某些方针。既然这样，不如就散了。同时，她也说到有位手下得了胃癌，大家在为他筹钱，因为家境不是很好。最近怎么这么多伤心事...
今天有点乱来，没什么主题，我只是想发发牢骚，因为不想把牢骚带到明天。下次，再聊快乐是不是会用完,之前也有聊过，只是我一直以为那只是我的怪想法，哪知道妹妹也有同样的想法。明天终于能和熙研一家人吃饭了，明天问问熙研 - 听下她的看法是不是和妹妹与我的相同。好久没见他们一家人了，好想念他们！
2008年8月7日星期四
I am Not Dreaming
2008 still have another five months and it is bye to 2008. I do not need for the year to be over to name it a challenging year. There are many lessons learnt during this time; good and bad lessons.
Life is precious; without this thread of life, there is nothing to talk about, no love of your life, no family, no pet, no money, nothing. Hence, people treasure life, there is nothing strange about this; everyone SHOULD love life. Reports of people miraculously surviving a disaster, people waking from coma, dogs rescuing their owners, patients making it through their first-in-the-world operation etc etc etc; these are not surprising. Not surprising at all, this is what human should be and do, this is human’s basic primal instinct. As human, we should love the life given graciously to us. Get it – human should love their life. AND the law is right to charge people who survive their suicide; they DESRVE to be charged. If life is transferable, it should be transferred away from those who do not treasure life.
Now come the surprising part – people not treasuring life. How do they do it? Not by taking the suicide path; this is the old story. Nowadays, people fail to treasure life in other ways and I think below are some of them:
1. Not living your dream
What is your problem? When do you want to start living your dream? When you are below ground because you finally have all the time in world? That is probably why you have RIP on your tombstone.
Let us take some few steps back; and go all the way back to your childhood. Do you still remember your childhood dream and what was your wildest and your most beloved dream? The dream that you swore in front of friends and told your parents so lovingly and proudly that you would be chasing. Where did that go?
2. Limiting your power in life
Why do people think they can only do so much? I can never understand why people want to put a limit to their ability? Do not justify that saying you are being realistic. There is nothing realistic in this world. There was this article that I came across in Times magazine many years ago - the article said there is nothing surprisingly if a baby does not make it to this world given the delicate formation process. A baby making it to this world IS a miracle.
So you see, you ARE already a miracle; so what make achieving your dream or a goal such a challenge? I have never seen an alien in my life, but I believe there is life outside of earth. Some of us believe in angels but never seen them; but still they believe in them. Just because you have yet achieved your dream does not mean they are unachievable. Why then make your dream so unachievable?
Life is nothing without passion. Remember your childhood dream. Remember you are a miracle the day you are born.
3. Bringing others “back” to earth by setting your limit on them
This is the worse crime of all. If you have already decided you are settling for your realistic goal, then please do that only to yourself; do not go out and destroy others’ dreams. Someone could have done it if you decide to give yours up; do not use calculation and explanations to put your limit on others. Keep that to yourself. Let others have their dream; it is possible to have the cake and eat it too if you try hard enough. There is nothing free in this world; work your butt off for it. You are already given your best gift when you are born; your life. It is only fair that you work for the rest of it.
Recently, someone threatened me - if you do not do it, it’s your problem because you are the one regretting it.
How scary can that sound… I do not want that regret. Do not forget you are responsible for your life. Thoughts generate action. Have the thought first, hold it dear and close to your heart. Once you have ascertained the thought; crystallize it by visualizing it. Let your thought led your action, and you will see how far your dream would bring you.
Life is precious; without this thread of life, there is nothing to talk about, no love of your life, no family, no pet, no money, nothing. Hence, people treasure life, there is nothing strange about this; everyone SHOULD love life. Reports of people miraculously surviving a disaster, people waking from coma, dogs rescuing their owners, patients making it through their first-in-the-world operation etc etc etc; these are not surprising. Not surprising at all, this is what human should be and do, this is human’s basic primal instinct. As human, we should love the life given graciously to us. Get it – human should love their life. AND the law is right to charge people who survive their suicide; they DESRVE to be charged. If life is transferable, it should be transferred away from those who do not treasure life.
Now come the surprising part – people not treasuring life. How do they do it? Not by taking the suicide path; this is the old story. Nowadays, people fail to treasure life in other ways and I think below are some of them:
1. Not living your dream
What is your problem? When do you want to start living your dream? When you are below ground because you finally have all the time in world? That is probably why you have RIP on your tombstone.
Let us take some few steps back; and go all the way back to your childhood. Do you still remember your childhood dream and what was your wildest and your most beloved dream? The dream that you swore in front of friends and told your parents so lovingly and proudly that you would be chasing. Where did that go?
2. Limiting your power in life
Why do people think they can only do so much? I can never understand why people want to put a limit to their ability? Do not justify that saying you are being realistic. There is nothing realistic in this world. There was this article that I came across in Times magazine many years ago - the article said there is nothing surprisingly if a baby does not make it to this world given the delicate formation process. A baby making it to this world IS a miracle.
So you see, you ARE already a miracle; so what make achieving your dream or a goal such a challenge? I have never seen an alien in my life, but I believe there is life outside of earth. Some of us believe in angels but never seen them; but still they believe in them. Just because you have yet achieved your dream does not mean they are unachievable. Why then make your dream so unachievable?
Life is nothing without passion. Remember your childhood dream. Remember you are a miracle the day you are born.
3. Bringing others “back” to earth by setting your limit on them
This is the worse crime of all. If you have already decided you are settling for your realistic goal, then please do that only to yourself; do not go out and destroy others’ dreams. Someone could have done it if you decide to give yours up; do not use calculation and explanations to put your limit on others. Keep that to yourself. Let others have their dream; it is possible to have the cake and eat it too if you try hard enough. There is nothing free in this world; work your butt off for it. You are already given your best gift when you are born; your life. It is only fair that you work for the rest of it.
Recently, someone threatened me - if you do not do it, it’s your problem because you are the one regretting it.
How scary can that sound… I do not want that regret. Do not forget you are responsible for your life. Thoughts generate action. Have the thought first, hold it dear and close to your heart. Once you have ascertained the thought; crystallize it by visualizing it. Let your thought led your action, and you will see how far your dream would bring you.
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